I feel like I haven’t reached my full potential yet.
Most of the time, I get too comfortable in this state. I keep telling myself not to take risks, that I can’t afford to. Because of that, I never step outside my comfort zone.
But deep down, I know that taking risks and stepping out of comfort are not the same.
They are entirely different things.
I need to speak out for what I believe in.
That isn’t the same as risking everything; it won’t cost my life,
and it won’t destroy what I’ve built so far, at least in my case.
Still, I keep mistaking discomfort for danger.
Every time I feel uneasy, my mind interprets it as a threat,
and that confusion keeps me stuck. My thoughts get tangled up in these false fears.
And when I try to think clearly, organise my mind a bit, the mess feels so heavy that the idea of taking the first step becomes completely overwhelming.
So, I sit down and never start.
It’s all my fault at the end of the day,
but I also think I can’t say this entire phrase of putting all the blame on myself;
it’s self-destructive. I believe this happens when you go on this self-improvement journey
where you don’t reach the end
and are left with only half-knowledge. And we all know half-knowledge is the most dangerous.
So yes, it is my fault, but I want to say it in the least self-destructive way.
I want to take it as a positive step
to acknowledge it
and do something about the mess inside my head.
